The Lord has Great plans for me

Most of you know that I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis almost 5 years ago. This was one of the first life changing moments that Kirk and I experienced together. We had just gotten married, I had just graduated nursing school, and had just started working as an RN at Baptist. I was really just getting my life started (i thought). I was terrified of what my life was going to be like and how Kirk and I would deal with the outcome of having MS. After about a year, I learned that if you try not to think about it, it might not be real, so that's what I did. That worked until I had to have my first MRI, and the MS progressed (got worse). This is when I got angry, at MS and at God. Getting angry at God was something I had never experienced. I wasn't sure if you were allowed to do that. After talking with my preacher and getting wonderful advice from the BEST neighbor in the world, I realized that you CAN get mad at God. He is BIG enough and wants you to tell him your frustrations. The hard thing to grasp is, he wants you to tell him and he wants you to place your trust in him that he is BIG enough to handle the situation. It may not have the outcome that you want but ultimately it is the outcome that is best. That was the hard part for me to swallow. It took years for me to get to where I am today. MS is no longer troubled waters for me. I look at MS as a stepping stone for my ultimate purpose that God has planned for me. MS has allowed Kirk and I to draw closer to the Lord, it has allowed us to travel to Vietnam and see a part of our giant world that I would have never seen without it. Most of all it has allowed us to FINALLY meet our beautiful baby girl. I would NEVER change my life. God has blessed me with MS and he continues to bless me everyday with some new experience. I am able to tell my patients about living with a disease that is disabling. I relate to them in ways that most nurses couldn't. This year I was asked to speak at Dyersburg State and tell my story of living with Multiple Sclerosis and how The Lord plays a huge role in my life. The blessings are never ending. I said all of that to say this........I had my MRI Wednesday a week ago. I got my MS treatment this past Wednesday and.....DRUM ROLL PLEASE! One of my lesions was gone!!! Absolute miracle from God. I give him all the glory for that. I was amazed when Dr. Stein said " you MRI showed no progression however the lesion on your brain stem is no longer visable." That was the most awesome feeling to hear that. I cannot wait to add that to my speech next year! :)



Thank you Lord!
Emily

Phillipians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything. Instead, in every situation, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, tell your requests to God. And the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.